The Ascendant

4:19 p.m., 2006-01-14

smoke

It stutters forward and I jump the gun, thinking this is the start of something huge. Then, instead of a torrent there isn't even a trickle and I'm back to feeling foolish for believing in the things I thought I'd moved beyond.

And you say you're tired of someone being the victim so of course I think you mean me.

And you say your biggest regret is not meeting me. It melts me a little and I start dropping my fences and walls and I fall a little bit for you. Then things go back to silence and those walls aren't here to help me pretend I don't feel.

I'm too tired for this business of falling in love. It has become so much work and so little magic that it's hard to believe it's worth the effort.

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